That's it. I'm done with dieting!

I was 20 years old when I started working at a small county hospital in SW Ohio. I still have my badge from back then…you know the one with your picture on it? I was a size 9 or 12 depending on who designed the clothes and about 150 lbs. I thought I was fat. Granted, at 5’2”, I guess you could have called me overweight with a BMI of 27.4. But there are days when I think to myself "man, what would I give to be 150 again?"

Today, December 1, 2007, I am…wait…maybe I should go and weigh again. Okay, it’s 8pm as I write these words and I just reweighed myself. I’m 290.8 lbs. (of course, it's night and I just had dinner at 6pm. So I'm sure tomorrow will be a better day. I'll weigh again in the morning.)

Just 8 weeks ago I was 273 lbs. 17 + pounds in 2 months. *sigh* I was working the Weight Watchers Points ™ system. It worked. I know it worked because I saw the results. But I’m sick of the points. I’m sick of obsessing over how many points I have to spend and "oh no! I'm losing a point! What ever shall I do?"

Yeah, sure, I COULD do CORE ™ but..again, 'tis the season of all my favorite foods. *G* I'm not ready to give up on them. And you still have points to count on the CORE ™ system. Just not as many of them.

So what is a fat girl to do? I KNOW what works...and I know that there are times when you just have to "tweak" the system to make it a life time thing. I certainly am not going to be a points freak for the rest of my life. There's just no way. Every time I think that I'll have to "count points" for the rest of my life, I go into a depression. Or really, more of a depression.

My friend, K, and I talked about this on Weds. She has been doing WWers as well and she's just as fed up with the points as I am. So we've decided that we're gonna tweak it for ourselves. We're going to find out what works FOR US and then actually MAKE it WORK.

I have to do something. I'm totally out of control and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being the "Fat One" of all my groups. (Family, Church, Social...)

It's time I stopped saying "when I'm thin" and start saying "I'm going to do it NOW!" So, come along on the journey with me. Let's see where I end up...*G*