Still reading....

Yeah...it's been like that. *G*

Good news from the weekend? I didn't gain any weight.

Bad news from the weekend? I didn't lose any weight.

But I'm okay with that. I'm not trying to lose so I'm not bothered by not losing. Now NEXT week...LOL we'll see.

Still reading

I'll report back later. Interesting stuff. I'm on Body Clutter by the fly lady (www.flylady.net) and the Bob Greene book...Best life diet.

Like I said...interesting...

Starting the research

So, I've started reading the "diet" books that I've checked out from the library. The first one is the Change One Diet from Readers Digest. It's a good concept. Basically, you change one thing at a time begining with breakfast. For a week (or so) you just eat breakfast in a healthy way. The diet advocates eating whole grains, a small amount of protien and a fruit for breakfast everyday. It continues with lunch and then with dinner, each step bringing you closer to "dieting". Then the program has you work on things like eating out and celebrations and finally maintenance. After mastering all of these, the plan then (finally) works in fitness.

The thing I like about this plan is that they totally advocate changing things slowly. The human body isn't geared toward making and maintaining huge changes all at one time. I can get behind something like this.

What I don't like about the book is that they leave fitness for the very end. Everyone knows that the actual easiest way to lose weight is Calories in < Calories out. Right? What is the easiest way to get those calories "out"? Exercise. (yes, I hate it too but there it is.)

All in all, the book is a good read. I'm still reading parts of it but for now, the very basic idea of the book is "change just one thing at a time". Good advice.

Soupy kind of day

So it's day 3. I spent last night on the library website holding books on dieting. I think I just want to research and find out all the different ways people say you should lose weight. Fascinating stuff. I did weed out the really stupid ones and anything that's over 10 years old. Gotta have that new info you know.

Had some soup for lunch when M got home. Campbell's pot roast soup is pretty dang tasty. I also tried out a packet of Candy Cane Pop Rocks. I used to love pop rocks. Not so much any more. But the kids will love them. (my SS kids. I don't have any of my own...nor do I plan to have any of my own.) I have to stay away from the candy cane kisses though. Man are THOSE addictive.

So, all in all, it's been a pretty good day. I need to get on the water consumption and get a walk in...or maybe just some housework.

Day 2...what an original title.

So I was right. The scale DID go down this morning. Whew! A whole 5.2 lbs! Man that must have been SOME dinner I had last night.

I've decided to go ahead and follow WWers (yes those damn points) while I search for the "perfect" solution FOR ME.

I'm going to do a few "unconventional" things as well.

1. Spend more time with God. I need to get rid of these empty feelings I've been having. They're just leading me down the path of FOOD MORE FOOD!!!

2. I don't know how I'm going to do it yet but, I think I'm going to try a new "trick". If it's too small to pray over (ie, a "snack of chocolate" or something like that) then it's not going in my mouth.

3. I'm going to keep up my water intake. I do love water. I'm sure I'll be talking about this as the weeks go on. But I know that water is one of my GOOD things. So, it totally stays.

There's going to be more...I'll keep you updated.


Today? Today has been an okay day. I went to Church, played my last performance of handbells and taught my SS class. Then we went out for brekkie (Yum Frisch's) and I limited myself at the breakfast bar. I had some of everything I enjoyed and only took small amounts. Usually, I'd have LARGE portions and then go back for more and more and more...not today. I'm still sort of stuffed from breakfast.

Oh yeah,

4. I need to remember that my "car" needs "fuel" and I'll need to eat accordingly.

Think that's it for now. I'm having a kitty standoff in front of the monitor so if there's any spelling mistakes, blame it on the cats.

That's it. I'm done with dieting!

I was 20 years old when I started working at a small county hospital in SW Ohio. I still have my badge from back then…you know the one with your picture on it? I was a size 9 or 12 depending on who designed the clothes and about 150 lbs. I thought I was fat. Granted, at 5’2”, I guess you could have called me overweight with a BMI of 27.4. But there are days when I think to myself "man, what would I give to be 150 again?"

Today, December 1, 2007, I am…wait…maybe I should go and weigh again. Okay, it’s 8pm as I write these words and I just reweighed myself. I’m 290.8 lbs. (of course, it's night and I just had dinner at 6pm. So I'm sure tomorrow will be a better day. I'll weigh again in the morning.)

Just 8 weeks ago I was 273 lbs. 17 + pounds in 2 months. *sigh* I was working the Weight Watchers Points ™ system. It worked. I know it worked because I saw the results. But I’m sick of the points. I’m sick of obsessing over how many points I have to spend and "oh no! I'm losing a point! What ever shall I do?"

Yeah, sure, I COULD do CORE ™ but..again, 'tis the season of all my favorite foods. *G* I'm not ready to give up on them. And you still have points to count on the CORE ™ system. Just not as many of them.

So what is a fat girl to do? I KNOW what works...and I know that there are times when you just have to "tweak" the system to make it a life time thing. I certainly am not going to be a points freak for the rest of my life. There's just no way. Every time I think that I'll have to "count points" for the rest of my life, I go into a depression. Or really, more of a depression.

My friend, K, and I talked about this on Weds. She has been doing WWers as well and she's just as fed up with the points as I am. So we've decided that we're gonna tweak it for ourselves. We're going to find out what works FOR US and then actually MAKE it WORK.

I have to do something. I'm totally out of control and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being the "Fat One" of all my groups. (Family, Church, Social...)

It's time I stopped saying "when I'm thin" and start saying "I'm going to do it NOW!" So, come along on the journey with me. Let's see where I end up...*G*